Then one of the Twelve—the one called Judas Iscariot—went to the chief priests and asked, “What are you willing to give me if I deliver him over to you?” So they counted out for him thirty pieces of silver.
I have read the gospel twice and heard it once during the mass. All I know is it never strike me until I heard her name again.
Let’s name her Hannah.
She loves photography.
She loves watching series.
She has passion for dancing.
She might be my sister from my past life.
Imagine the excitement I had when I first met her on Randy’s (my ex-boyfriend) office as a friend. I trusted her because like what I said I look up to her as my sister. But one day, everything has just fallen apart. The strongest vase that you could ever think of, fell and broke into tiny pieces.
She broke us apart.
But she broke me more.
You know what’s the funny thing? I met another Hannah. The same exact descriptions I gave. The same traits and the same skills. Except for the fact that there is no more Randy in the room. She was just a plain simple Hannah who has been serving the Lord.
You know what she reminds me of every time I see her? Pain. (I feel guilty by the way)
It’s as if I have a Judas in my life that I cannot forget.Big judgement I know.
So what Holy Wednesday reminded me?
- The Betrayal
Then Judas, his betrayer, said in reply, “Surely It is not I, Rabbi?” He answered “ You have said so. “
He didn’t argue with Judas.
He didn’t judge.
Though the betrayal caused him so much pain, he let it go and Trusted the Father for his plans.
Jesus died on the cross and God gave up his only son to save us from our sins. His undying love taught us that He is willing to forgive you even before you ask.
Have you read the story of the adulterous woman that never asked for forgiveness but She was forgiven?
The teachers of the law and the Pharisees brought in a woman caught in adultery. They made her stand before the group and said to Jesus, “Teacher, this woman was caught in the act of adultery. In the Law Moses commanded us to stone such women. Now what do you say?” They were using this question as a trap, in order to have a basis for accusing him.
But Jesus bent down and started to write on the ground with his finger. When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, “Let any one of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her.” Again he stooped down and wrote on the ground.
At this, those who heard began to go away one at a time, the older ones first, until only Jesus was left, with the woman still standing there. Jesus straightened up and asked her, “Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?”
“No one, sir,” she said.
“Then neither do I condemn you,” Jesus declared. “Go now and leave your life of sin.”
Imagine how his forgiveness has changed this woman, How can he not do this to you too?
- Unconditional Love
When we go to church, It’s obvious that we are praying. We pray for ourselves and for others but picture how God has been praying for all of us?
As I was about to end my prayer after I received the Holy communion, It dawned on me that I was no longer praying for myself. I wanted to cry inside the church because I felt how He has been listening and How he has been calling us to repent.
God has unimaginable love for us. His crazy, enormous, gigantic love for us is so unconditional that he wants us to “allow him “ to love us. He wanted us to pray for each other as a form of love.
Look where we are now, we are trying to figure out who will love us better when we actually have God who is willing to do more than that?
This Holy Wednesday taught me that there are things in our timeline that hit us so badly that we felt we couldn’t get up anymore. We keep on trying but the forces are just too strong that we could only focus on our own pain.
When Judas betrayed Jesus, most of us has judge Judas. Most of us felt Judas messed up terribly in the bible. I bet Judas also felt that too, especially after seeing Jesus suffered. But did Jesus judge Judas? Did he said to Judas “ You will never be forgiven? “ He didn’t.
So who are we to allow the people who betrayed and hurt us feel they will never be forgiven by you and the father?
He loves us so much that he is willing to forgive us.
We are only humans, we sin, we run, we hide, we cursed, we belittle others and so on and so forth.
And He is God.
Let this Year of Mercy happen into your life.
Maybe this blog didn’t happen by coincidence, maybe this is a message from him for you to come home.
Let him handle your worries. He got this all covered.
You just have to trust that his LOVE is greater than this world can ever offer.
P.S. Maybe some of you were asking, what happened to Hannah, was she forgiven?
I guess that’s also God’s question to me in this journey.
– Some names have been changed to protect the privacy of the individuals involved. –
*Photos taken from Padre Pio Pietrelcina Church, Libis. Photos taken by Ms. Sheila Dinn Yu-Aquede